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My SIMPLE PLAN:Get Your Heart On Experience

2012-01-14T03:42:00.000-08:00

hey bloggers!

Well, it was just the start of the new year; 2012 and I can definitely feel the love. I have been blessed early this year with so much already that I really couldn't help but be so grateful, thankful and in awe of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! He has given so many surprises and breakthroughs already! -and the year is just starting! WOW! Truly all glory to GOD alone! I am so happy! well, not just happy, I am filled with so much JOY!

Like one very specific example, two days ago; I was BLESSED with tickets to see my favorite band of all time, SIMPLE PLAN! I felt like I was in high school again, the fact that they came back here was such a blessing already, but to be given the privilege to see them live was such a surreal experience. Really,I cannot even manage to put my feelings into words. I am so happy and honestly, it was definitely one of the BEST NIGHTS OF MY LIFE! Music, Lyrics and AWESOMENESS! :) One of the things that I really really love about SIMPLE PLAN are their lyrics! How honest and real it is. Honestly, their songs helped me during high school, their lyrics were echoing the feelings of probably every teenager and helped me a lot and boosted my interest in music. Though yes, they are not a Christian band, but still, they are a part of my life. I have been blessed as well with the company of great friends who also happen to be my church-mates which made it extra special for me. I had so much fun that night, and it was my first time to attend a concert with friends. I really had such a blast!

The whole concert was superb from the beginning, middle and end! it was EPIC! They started with Shut Up, followed by Addicted, My Alien, Can't keep my hands off you, Jump, then the party mash up songs, Loser of the Year, You Suck at love, Your love is such a lie, Welcome to my life, Jet Lag, I'd Do Anything, Summer Paradise, Astronaut, This Song saved my life, I'm Just a Kid and perfectly ended with PERFECT! (I'm not sure if I got the sequence right but I think that's basically it? haha! hey, I was rockin' out the entire night! hope I didn't forget any songs though :P) but I have to say one,( and yes, ONE) of my favorite parts is when they did a mash up of Forget You, I Gotta Feeling, Dynamite and Raise Your Glass! that was such a party rockin' moment! I really couldn't help but jump and rock on! Though I have to say, David's vocal chops were superb! and the way he hit that HIGH NOTE! was just! ahhhh! But I did have a hard time singing along with Jet Lag because they somehow changed the key cause David did the duet part with Pierre so it was super low for me, but hey! I didn't care! it was JET LAG! I truly had one of the BEST nights of my life and I know that there will be more "best nights"! I am really excited! very very grateful! Pierre, David, Sebastian, Chuck and Jeff were all really great and I could really feel the love and energy that they were giving (even if I was sooo far from them, too bad that I was in the Gen-Ad section that I wasn't able to get any of the towels, bottles, guitar picks and drum sticks that they were throwing!) I was really pumped up! That even when I got home, I was still thinking of the concert and I'm really having a hard time grasping the fact that I did watch them LIVE! I heard Pierre's voice LIVE, he was talking to the crowd, LIVE! Which reminds me of another thing that I absolutely love about them! -they were soo sincere! The interaction with the audience was really cool! They're not like the superficial bands who has this "air" of "i'm too cool for you, im a rockstar blah blah" they don't have that, they are really cool people. You know what, I know that this dream seems impossible, but I hope that I get to meet them one day, maybe even jam with them :P haha! I know that it's a one in a million chance for me, but hey, I thought watching them live in concert was impossible too, but Tada! I did! haha! So, we'll see ;) if it happens, then WOW! (Nothing is impossible with GOD!)

I am very thankful that GOD provided the time, money and energy for me to attend this concert, I really am in awe of HIM because I know that everything comes from HIM alone! I'm glad that God is constantly reminding me to be faithful to HIM and be patient because in HIS perfect time, HE will grant all the desires of my heart. This experience is just one out of the many many blessings that GOD has given me, and HE never fails to exceed my expectations of HIM and leave me speechless. I am so blessed to be surrounded by HIS GLORY!

Father, I thank you for everything!

Remain Faithful and Stay BLESSED,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

2012

2012-01-10T07:50:00.000-08:00

hey bloggers!
HAPPY NEW YEAR! well, this is officially my first post this year! Welcome 2012. So how's your 2012 so far? Well, I dunno about you guys but somehow, I have this strong gut feeling that this year will be...different. In a way that it is gonna be a year of revelations and breakthroughs. I dunno why I am overly optimistic about this year, but I do believe that it is GOD's way of assuring me that this year will really be great.

I know it sounds too superficial for me to be this positive about certain things, but there are things that you just know. And this is what I know. God certainly wrestled with me last year, there were so many things that happened last year that tested me and my faith. there were moments when I stumbled, fell, there were even moments when I felt so cold and numb, like someone was pulling me back in darkness and I was once again in a struggle to get out. It was a battle... but I think that that is really what life is about, it is a battle. Call it a cliche but again, a cliche is called a cliche for a reason. Life is really a battle. A never ending battle in fact. Everyday we are facing new enemies to conquer and it is really difficult for all of us. Each day is a revelation that we are indeed vulnerable. We are weak. This is real. We have no strength, no confidence every time we stand alone. Everyday new enemies are born, and we have no choice to face them, and face it, we are only human. We do get defeated, --especially when we are unprepared and facing them alone. Picture it this way, imagine yourself as a soldier in a war. that is life, but how can you be called a real soldier if:
1. You do not have any gear-meaning, you aren't dressed appropriately
2. you do not have any bullets with you.
3.You are not strong enough.
Sounds like you do not have any chances to win, right? Wrong. the truth is, we can win, we can get through every day, if and only if, we rely on GOD.

As I was having my daily date with GOD, just a few moments ago, I was suddenly reminded by HIS word, A sudden revelation happened. Another stunning moment with GOD. HE lead me toPhilippians 3:9 which states that "Be found in HIM, not having righteousness on my own that comes from the law but which is through faith in Christ-the righteousness that comes from GOD and is by faith"
I believe that GOD wants us to rely on HIM, He wants us to be with HIM and call on HIM every day. He is the one who wants us to tell HIM everything, even if He already knows, He is always patiently waiting for us to call unto Him so that we may realize that we always have someone to listen to us, someone who could wrestle with us in every battle. God is truly someone who will always be there to catch us, someone who will never get sick of our praises, rants and complaints. Someone to rely on, someone who we can fall back on. He is the only one who has immeasurable patience, and who doesn’t want that? Someone who will never tire of helping you, someone to pick you up every time you fall, someone to catch you, someone to give you a comforting embrace, someone who will dry your tears, --only GOD can do that. Only GOD is like that. Only GOD can listen to you 24/7. He will never grow tired of you. All you have to do is ask for His help, especially in times of vulnerability . it is incredible important for all of us to maintain our relationship with GOD because there are so many breakthroughs and surprises that will happen. GOD is actually the BEST best friend that we can ever have.

This year will be a GREAT YEAR! let's just focus and rely on GOD at all times. You know what, let's just find the comfort of reconnecting with GOD everyday, because for sure, God wants to know how you feel. God wants to hear what's in your heart. I pray for intimacy with you and GOD this year :)

Stay Blessed Everyone,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

I want YOU

2011-11-14T06:30:00.000-08:00

This is probably one of the most overwhelming experience in my life. I have just been offended, hurt and mad. Just now. It just ended. I know that this is one of those moments where the enemy is trying to discourage me. Why? Because GOD has prepared a beautiful revelation for me.

In my willingness to feel alive and uplifted again, I tried making the most out of the net. I searched. I searched for encouragement. I searched for HIS words. I searched for HIS wisdom. I want to have that heart of worship again. I don't want to be this cold and dry coal. I want GOD's fire in me. It is funny that this is happening in just the start of the week. But you know, the thing that motivates me even further is knowing that GOD has a revelation for me today. And HE really does. Every moment of experience is equal to teachable moments. That is what GOD wants from me. He wants to teach me. He wants me to grow in HIM.

Anyway, in my search to find GOD's message, I landed on youtube wherein Kim Walker was speaking and teaching everyone how to have a lifestyle of worship. She's pointing out that worship is not music nor songs, Worship is our personal and individual connection to HIM. Songs and other mediums are just expressions of our worship with GOD. They are just expressions because we are so overwhelmed with HIS presence; songs, music, poems etc are created by and for HIM alone.

Temptations will always be there. ALWAYS. That is why we need to be guarded by HIS armor. We need HIM. We should make a habit out of it, to make each waking moment a worship moment with Christ. Usually, temptations and doubts appear during the day, during the time when we are not doing anything, when we are quiet, alone and vulnerable. Remember that we are always always vulnerable. That is when we usually think of the situation that we are facing, think of the problems that could happen, making the best decision for everyone, or even entertaining the doubts in our mind. We tend to ask, "Why is this happening?" "why" "why" "why" then you'd depend on yourself to find all the answers that will eventually lead you astray. Which really should not be the case. We should have this automatic response that whenever the enemy tries to tempt or lure us towards his side, we should remember GOD's promises, God's word because those are the only things that are real and true. The rest are all lies. So whenever you feel scared, or in doubt or when you have all these rushing unanswered questions; surrender everything to Him. He knows your needs, He knows your situation. Realize that you should want GOD more than the answers. You should care more about your relationship with HIM rather than finding solutions. Don't you get it? with God, everything is solved. Just surrender, let go and want to know HIM more.

This actually kinda goes in contrast of the ever-so-famous quote, "Let God worry about your future" -I honestly disagree. It should be rephrased as "Let God take care of your future" God does not need to worry, He made you, He knows you, He made your future, surely He knows what will happen, and that is the reason why He makes HIS promises because He took care of it already.

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" -Jeremiah 29:11 -

He said it, so for sure, He will fulfill it. All you have to do is let it go, give it up and surrender everything to HIM. Trust HIM. HE KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING.

"Worship is a LIFESTYLE. True Worship is not in the words of a song; but carried upon the heart of the singer. It is an outward expression of an inward reality."-http://lifestyleofworship.blogspot.com

WORSHIP HIM. Stay BLESSED,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

An Epiphany

2011-11-08T18:46:00.000-08:00

hey bloggers,

here's the thing. You know the old sayings "life is short" or "make the most out of life" and others that are similar to those meanings. Well, I recently decided to venture on going in the "online world". My perception of meeting people online seems incredibly very silly to me at first. I have always thought that it is a weird thing and that you cannot be friends with someone you do not know or do not even see or talk to personally. I really found it silly. -and for some reason, I wanted to prove myself right. In my twenty one years of existence; I have always just gone online in friendster and facebook and just added the people whom I know personally. I never added people I do not know. (that also goes with twitter and myspace and youtube) but recently, I chose to take on a role. A different role and really get my personal glimpse of the online world by...TADA entering various chatrooms.

Before going through the whole thing, I honestly prayed. I asked for the penetration of the Holy Spirit to keep me clean because I have found out through movies and sitcoms that there are so many perverts in the online world. So, with that being done, I went. It was freaky at first, indeed there are so many people who are exposing things that are just supposed to be in seen in private or not at all. It was crazy. At first I started with just observing/reading their chats and I honestly could not keep up. It is crazy how people can even understand each other in chatrooms, everything is like super fast, pop ups here and there. I was truly overwhelmed by the whole thing. I honestly could not stomach it at all. It was something that was completely bizarre for me. I jumped from site to site because I couldn't understand it. I was really creeped out by the whole thing, especially when people pops into chats and ask for "ASL" and I had no idea what it stands for at that time, then they'd open up about their lives. It's weird. It is like online therapy, because people, random people would pour out their inner most desires/hate/pain and all their emotions at that moment. I guess it is a good thing that I'm interested in psychology, and I have a degree in Special Education with minor in Exceptional Psychology so more or less, I guess I was able to help in a way. Every site was the same, and its a good thing that I didn't use my real name while I was in those chatrooms because it was a mixture of good and different people. It was really overwhelming.

At first, my mind was set into blogging that online sites are a no, no. but when I somehow reached this one particular site, it was different. It was like a poor version of facebook. I honestly met decent and real people. Some of them seem to be really pleasant and friendly. That site was alright and it actually made me keep my account there and personalize it. My point is... I was wrong. There are indeed good and decent people that we can meet online. Some of em are even inspiring people. They are really great and friendly. It's kind of nice to know that there are still decent people whom we can talk to and get to know online. One even gave me a shout out and one is studying in bible school-Come on, talk about good, right? It's just amazing how Christ works in our lives :)

My epiphony; The world wide web is just like the "real world" sure there are so many ungodly and unclean stuff around you but life is still basically about perspective. Choose to see the good things and it will be shown to you. Not everything in this world is bad. Just like a clean and blank white sheet of cloth, we should stop focusing on that one dot-like stain that is on it and see the bigger and cleaner cloth. It is all about perspective. Choose to see the good in everyone. Choose to see the light in the darkest of days for that is the time when Christ will reveal himself to you, HE is the true light.

For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.-2 Corinthians 4:6

STAY BLESSED,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU

2011-11-05T10:25:00.000-07:00

hey bloggers,

I am a huge sucker for chick flicks. honestly, I can watch them all day and have the best day ever. Seriously, fine-yes I am a girly girl. Whatever. The point is, out of all the chick flicks that I have watched over and over and over again, I think the one that tops my list is "He's just not that into you".

This movie is the only chick flick that I have really learned a lot from. Honestly, I really learned a LOT from this movie. Sure, I haven't been a girlfriend to anyone and I am in no rush, the thing is that before watching this movie, I was one of the losers who believed all the"signs" and stuff. That if I guys acts like a total jerk to you it only means that he is craving for your attention, if he breaks up with you it is because blah blah and blah. Sure, I haven't had any first hand encounters to being in a relationship but I was one of those girls who said everything to make my girl friend feel better. I thought that it was true. It is really funny how different men and women are. man, "he's just not that into you" I have to say that after watching that; it changed how I dealt with my broken-hearted friends. I believe that somehow, I've grown. I usually now ask what really happened and I can see the petty mistakes that girls and guys make. -the good thing about it is that I can tell them what they did wrong. It really helps. Weird.

I now understand what it means to be the rule and the exception. Everyone wants to be an exception. That is what we all want. The great thing about this is how beautifully it was written. Instead of going with the ever-so-cliche "you are the one" it became "you are the exception" and it is about time, we all have been using "the one" since-ever. I have to read the book. It's weird that I was able to understand the dynamics of being in a relationship knowing the fact that when it comes to a relationship, I am just an outsider looking in. I honestly relate the mot to Gigi because of how naive she is, but at the same time I don't because she has been in a relationship and she goes on dates. I however, do not. I am however the one who people talk to after the date-if it went well or not, if they fought. I am like the ultimate relationship confidant. Even at work, I was still the confidant. My friends come to me for relationship advice. That was and is who I am in high school and to this day, that is still my role The confidant, the bridge that patches the LQ. I don't mind, I just find it kind of odd. Being a single person, I tend to enjoy reading articles about "how to know if a guy likes you" "how to read the sign if..." and so on, you get the picture, right? whatever. I read articles like that but if a guy is not that into you, even if you scored a perfect 10 in the quiz on how to be the best girlfriend, you will never have him. UGH! Such a good movie! I wanna watch it now! haha! But you know, while writing this, this question dawned on me, can still be an exception to someone? Or will I ever be an exception to someone someday. It just kept me thinking. Maybe. Maybe not. No one on earth really knows. I so badly want to watch "He's just not that into you" right now, but I couldn't find the dvd. I lent in to one of my friends but I couldn't remember who. Grr. I hate it when that happens. haha!

Anyway, I hope that one day. Someone will be able to tell me "You are my exception" until that day comes, I'm gonna wait. :) and continue watching chick flicks! :) HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU IS THE BEST CHICK FLICK OF ALL TIME! :)

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

It isn't fair.

2011-11-05T10:01:00.000-07:00

hey bloggers,

Okay, so I know that I'm not supposed to think about negativity at all. But there are times that I really just got to rant.

Sometimes it isn't fair. It isn't fair that life hands you these obstacles that seems to be so difficult that it overwhelms a lot of people. It actually leads you into feeling, numb of some sort. Negativity is a very funny thing, how it can badly affect your day. How it can change your view point in life, you suddenly think of the things that you haven't thought of in ages just because of that one thing that put you down. It isn't fair. It isn't fair to your faith, it isn't fair to you and more enormously, it isn't fair to GOD. He never gave up on me, nor on you and just because of this one random negative thought that the enemy attempted to inject in you, you'd feel blown away and overwhelmed, come on, that is just plain silly. The main point is you should NEVER allow the enemy to take over you and your thoughts. You know that words are very powerful, whether it is being said or heard, words are powerful. Remember that, so when a random thought of negativity comes into mind, focus on the one and only living word alone. Never allow the plots of the enemy take you over. GOD is your strength, HE is yours and you are HIS. No one and NOTHING can ever take you away from that. Whenever you feel lonely, helpless, overwhelmed and discouraged, focus on GOD. Talk to the only being who understands you because for sure, HE will know EXACTLY what to say. HE IS ALWAYS ON TIME.

So no matter what anyone else around you tells you, judges you, insults you or hurts you that may lead to your discouragement, turn to GOD, HE will uplift you in so many ways that is beyond your imagination and expectations. Chill, Relax and be Still. Hold on to HIS promises and hold on to the fact that HE created everything in just seven days; imagine what HE can do in the next week, month, year-even decade. GOD was and is AMAZING. He'll take care of everything :)

Stay Blessed,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

GROWING UP

2011-10-27T03:50:00.000-07:00

hey bloggers!

I got the privilege to visit my high school. it was their foundation week and we (Alumni) were invited. there were a LOT of activities! My sister still goes there, this is her senior year in high school so she will be leaving now. As I was walking up and down the stairs, in the hallway of my once home away from home; there were so many high school memories. I was never the popular girl. Though everyone knew me because I was one of the fattest students there, and I was part of Drama, English, Dance clubs, Cantata and Student Council before, so I was somewhat familiar. There were so many changes since I was there. I realized that I was indeed getting old. When I was watching the students from different levels perform, I remembered how active I was and how much I enjoyed performing on stage. I was in high school.

My social status in high school was not bad at all. I was actually everybody's friend. Everyone talked and confided in me, they opened up and I didn't mind. I was somehow their bridge towards their real emotion. I was like a student guidance councilor, but I was okay with that, I did not mind at all. I was happy knowing that people trusted me. I remembered the places where I talked to this person, where we played our "batuhang bola", "langit lupa", taguan and so much more random games. I remembered the spot where my "cool" classmates would sit and create different misfit activities, I remembered the places where our ever so strict math teacher would yell at my classmates for misbehaving, I remembered the spot where one of the popular guys in the whole campus would play his guitar and sing during lunch breaks while the higher years gathered and joined him, I remembered the spot where mr.X broke up with ms.X and ms.Y dumped mr.Y. There were so much memories. High school is definitely one of the chapters in my life that I'd never forget. Though, I was a wall flower back then, high school is still very significant to me.

After helping my sister dress up for the school dance, I decided to sit on the couch and scan channels. I landed on Star Movies where TOY STORY 3 was playing. It was already the last part, where Buzz was reaching Woody's hand and deciding to give up. I watched Toy Story 3 already. I know how it ended; but somehow it still got to me. the sadness in Woody's eyes when they decided to give up. but the thing that really affected my heart is when Andy was giving away his toys to Bonnie. The hesitation in his face when Bonnie found Woody. that scene alone stuck me. It made me think of who I am and who I am trying to be.

We are all like that sometimes. IN DENIAL. We hold on to precious memories too much that we are afraid to let go. We are all growing up. that is a fact and it is inevitable. I'm twenty one now and obviously, I am no longer a teenager. I am officially a grown up. There are times that I tend to convince myself "oh, I'm still young" for this and that but the truth is I am not a kid anymore. I am an adult. An adult with responsibilities to accept and face. I think that accepting the fact that we are all growing up is hard. Sure, it is good to have fun and enjoy life and go easy; but each moment that I waste doing nothing and having fun is equal to each minute/ second/ mili second/ moment that I am also getting older. Each moment counts. Deadlines are there, schedules are given, meetings, requirements. -it is all part of growing up. The thing that sucks is that, I am only realizing this now. It took my childhood movie to make me realize that I must stop holding on to my "Woody" and let go. It is time to move on. You know what, We all have Woodys in our lives. (memories, toys, status, hobbies etc) sure, you should enjoy it, but there will come a time when you really have to let go.

Letting go of something you hold dearly is difficult. Like me, I am holding on to the fact that I am still in college. The truth is, I cannot accept the fact that I am an adult. I feel like because I stopped studying, haven't held my college diploma in my hands and haven't graduated from college; I am still in college. That is not the case. Yes, I did stop. I haven't graduated yet but I am already an adult. I guess my Woody is my diploma. I keep on holding on to the fact that sooner or later, I will go back to school and finish my degree. I'm sure that will happen in time, but for now, I must do something meaningful with my life. I must find purpose and meaning. Though, honestly, I am in tears right now as I write this. I have to let college go. Obviously, it won't happen soon, so I should do something for the mean time; let it go and move on. it does not mean that I won't come back for it, because I will. I really want to finish my studies, it is one of my goals in life, plus I only have one more year to go before marching on stage with that toga and a few steps closer to my diploma-so it will happen. I will finish my studies. That is a promise that GOD has made, He may not tell me when yet, but HE never breaks HIS promises. So, my decision now, let go and move on. Just like what Andy did. He let Woody go, I'm letting go. (Again, I don't know why but I am in tears again! haha!) Think about it, when Andy let go of Woody, he hesitated but he was able to let go. That is what I'm doing now. It kinda hurts, but it is not impossible. Besides, I'm sure that Andy still visits Bonnie once in a while; right? So I can do the same. I know that I am sounding so redundant right now, but I'm just filled with so much emotion and I am rambling-sorry :)

I am about to face a new adventure. Moving on. You know what? I am actually so fascinated on the obscure way of how HE opened my eyes. He used a movie. Toy Story 3! The movie that ended my childhood. It's weird but good. It's hard but possible. just like what Woody and Andy did, I am saying Good-bye to my Woody; I can look back-but I have moved on. I have to. It is life. Right now, I am actually longing for comfort. My heart is in pain, may be because a part of me does not want to accept the fact that I am growing up, but I am taking a leap of faith and I know that GOD has already gone before me and has prepared that destination that I have yet to seek. I am ready and humbled. I am just really emotional right now, but I am also grateful that GOD helped me realize this. I'm moving on. I'm growing up! YEY! I am about to take on a new adventure with GOD walking beside me and holding my hand. This is gonna be great.

*For those who has been living under a rock and haven't seen Toy Story 3; here's the scene that I was talking about:

::it is just the picture the actual scene is seen here

It is really funny how movies or even cartoons can affect a person. This is weird. Really weird. I feel like a part of me is changing. Somehow, I can honestly feel that despite this challenge, there is something good that is gonna come my way one of these days. Just like going to college.

I literally grew up with Toy Story; I remember going to the cinema with my Mom, sister, cousins, aunts and uncles. It was somehow a tradition for us to watch Toy Story together, I cannot believe that is over. Toy Story 3 helped me grow up. I now realize that my childhood has reached its end the day that Toy Story reached its third installment. I am now waving goodbye to the childlike me and saying hello to the future-mature me. I'm Andy saying "GOOD BYE" to Woody. Actually, We are all Andy; the challenge is: are you ready to move on and say goodbye to your Woody?

STAY BLESSED,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

Reasons.Realizations.Revelations

2011-10-13T07:35:00.000-07:00

hey bloggers,

I just got home from an awesome Praise and Worship at our church during the PRAYER MEETING. WOW! I am just so humbled by GOD's presence! I was given a chance by GOD to lead HIS people into worshiping Him. and I found this out a few days ago and I was asked to lead this song, I have meditated on this for days and really focused on the song itself, but when I got there, our pastor decided to change the song. I was anxious. Seriously, I was. I got scared and lost my confidence. I was nervous, though I am also very familiar with what our Pastor has chosen, it was not the song that I practiced and dwelled on for the passed few days. I became nervous, I felt like every inch of me was shaking and scared.

I was worried. Was a bit weary on how or what was gonna happen. I was nervous. but while we were rehearsing, I screwed up, but when I meditated on the lyrics, became sensitive to the anointing of the Holy Spirit, I was actually in awe. I was reminded that IT IS NOT ABOUT ME. I won't screw up because GOD has gone before me, He knows what will happen. He knows that at the end of the day, HE will be GLORIFIED and EXALTED. it is about GOD and not me. I'll never forget that feeling; nervous, anxious, scared, worried-these were lies. Lies that the enemy was injecting into my heart and mind. but you know what, whenever you feel weary, remember that it only means one thing, GOD has something to reveal to you that is why the enemy is trying to hinder you from knowing His revelation.

The time came when I was leading and ushering everyone to worship GOD. It was so overwhelming that I spoke too fast during exhorting-haha! sure, it could have been better, but GOD felt my enthusiasm. GOD knows that I was excited to praise and worship HIM! I have a LOT to learn. I do. but I always make sure that at the end of everything that I will do, it is GOD who will be GLORIFIED! I am BLESSED to be given this privilege to lead HIS people into praising HIM, and whatever or whenever GOD tells me to do it again, I will obey HIM because that only means that HE has prepared me and my heart and everything will always end well.

Remember that in everything, You deserve better but GOD deserves more :)

Stay Blessed,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

being an OUTSIDER

2011-09-03T02:47:00.000-07:00

Hey Bloggers,

Wow. It has been a while and you know, there is absolutely sooo much that has happened in my life since the last time I posted here. I also haven't written any poems in a while which is really unfortunate but true. It's weird, I call myself a writer but I haven't written anything here in a LONG TIME! Thought I do write in my notebook, thoughts and ideas but I haven't wrote, like really focused on writing. I MISS writing. Somehow I feel so contained in this closed small box because I'm not allowing my ideas to flow anymore. No more creative ideas. why? I don't practice anymore. I don't write anymore.

Now, I am in the point of my life where I am really trying to figure out what I really want to do with my life. If I really want to be a teacher, a therapist, a psychologist, a guidance councilor or a writer. Writing is definitely a PASSION of mine, but I'm filled with fear that I might not be good enough. I am very much aware that GOD has BLESSED sooo many people with the gift and passion of writing as well. I am definitely not alone. But why can't I find them? Why am I so insecure with being accepted. I actually feel like such an outsider looking in. And right now, At this moment of my life, my "theme song" is Taylor Swift's "the outside" why? Because I feel like everyone knows what they want to do with their lives already. Like they have everything figured out. I'm scared. Honestly, I am. I somehow feel like I have my own little world going on while others are there and they already know what they want to do, what they want to be.

It's weird, everything is so different now. When we were kids and our parents asks us what we want to be when we grow up, we answer 'doctor', 'teacher', 'nurse', 'artist' etc in a heartbeat. but now, now that I am in my early twenties; all I can say to the same question is..."i don't know". I'm scared. I'm so scared. I don't know what the world would be, I am definitely an outsider looking in because I am not sure what I want to do or where do I really fit in.

It is scary. Right now, I am an outsider and I honestly don't know if that is a good or a bad thing. but you know what? despite what I feel, I know that there is ONE being that really knows me, ONE being who accepts me, ONE being who knows what I should do with my life. GOD. Though I have all these mixed feelings, GOD is with me and I am sure that in HIS perfect time, HE will reveal what I should do with my life. This is a NEW ADVENTURE, challenging and confusing. yes, cause it is part of it but in the end, when I get to the destination with GOD's guided path, It will be so worth it, I will remember this day, all these feelings and just feel so THANKFUL and GRATEFUL that I was able to experience all these. So when the time comes when I'll be asked, "what do you want to be?" I'll know the answer! this is a NEW journey, a NEW ADVENTURE with GOD and if I have HIM with me the entire time, what should I be scared about, right?

"…If God be for us, who can be against us?” -Romans 8:31

WITH GOD, EVERYDAY IS AN ADVENTURE. LIFE ITSELF IS AN ADVENTURE AND GOD IS OUR COMPASS THAT ALWAYS LEADS US TO THE RIGHT PATH.

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

SONGS.

2011-04-21T19:38:00.000-07:00

hey bloggers!

I LOVE MUSIC. Music plays a huge part of my life, but I guess, so does with others, I never knew anyone who hates music, it is impossible, but you know, eversince I have joined the music ministry, I had a new meaning of what songs and lyrics can do to a person. I have always loved music, and just like everybody else, we all have our soundtrack of our lives. mine- would have to be HOLD ON by 33miles.

Ofcourse there are obviously a LOT of great songs with heart piercing lyrics out there; but it feels somehow different when listening to songs from GOD. There is a certain comfort with His songs that just uplifts you. It is a feeling that is very different but rewarding. There is just this feeling of satisfaction that I get whenever I listen to this song, it is like the anthem of my life. I feel like it is GOD who is singing and speaking through the song; the line "HOLD ON, HOLD ON, WHEN THE CURRENT PULLS YOU UNDER AND YOUR HEART BEATS LIKE THUNDER, JUST GIVE ME YOUR HAND AND HOLD ON, HOLD ON, UNTIL THE STORM IS OVER AND I'LL BE FIGHTING FOR YOU, JUST GIVE ME YOUR HAND AND HOLD ON" gives me the feeling of HOPE. Cause honestly, right now, it is a struggle, but of course, we all have our own stories to share, and I am not going to dwell on that because I know that GOD will take care of everything, All I have to do is to "HOLD ON" to HIM.

There are a LOT more songs that really uplifts me everytime I hear it, (again this proves how amazing GOD is, as He communicates to us through His different instruments)

"At the cross I bow my knee, where your blood was shed for me, there's no greater love than this, you have overcome the grave, your glory fills the highest place, what can separate me now? you tore the vail,you made a way, when you said that it is done" (AT THE CROSS by Hillsong)
--This song alone just shows how much GOD loves us and it just reminds me of how BLESSED I really am to have this life-a LIFE in which was given to me not because I deserve it but because of GOD's grace. As a sinner, I DO NOT DESERVE ANYTHING, but because of GOD's UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, He has blessed me with HIS GRACE. The cross is not a symbol for me, instead, it is a reminder of what JESUS did for all of us at the cross.

"I WANNA LIVE FOR YOU, BE GLORIFIED FOREVER, MY LIFE WILL DECLARE THAT YOU ALONE ARE LORD, EVERYTHING OF ME, USE IT FOR YOUR GLORY THAT EVERYONE WILL SEE, WILL HEAR AND WILL KNOW, THAT YOU ARE LORD OF ALL" (LORD OF ALL)
--This is another favorite of mine, because it sustains me into living my life for Christ, because whatever I do with my life; that is the best gift that I can give Him, all I have to do is to focus my eyes and heart on GOD. The things that I do for JESUS is not because of my guilt; but because I want to please the one and only LORD of all. He is GOD. HE ALONE deserves all the glory, honor and praise- which then reminds me of another song by PLANETSHAKERS (LIFT YOU HIGH) "WE LIFT YOU HIGH, HIGHER THAN ALL OTHERS, WE LIFT YOU HIGH, HIGHER THAN ALL ELSE, FOR GREAT ARE YOU LORD AND WORTHY OF ALL THE GLORY AND HONOR AND PRAISE"
--Only GOD deserves to be glorified. Because He is GOD. and everyday, I just want to get to know more about HIM. honestly, I never felt this strongly towards anyone, I AM INLOVE WITH GOD, because HE IS LOVE. HE IS the only one who loves me despite my sins, despite my short comings, despite the pain that I have caused HIM, HE still loves me, He is a forgiving and loving GOD. and all I really want is to be in HIS arms for eternity. "OH HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I BROKEN YOUR HEART, BUT STILL YOU FORGIVE, IF ONLY I ASK" (ALL FOR LOVE by HILLSONG) He did everything all for love. HE alone is great and mighty.

"YOU ARE GOD, LIVES YOU RESTORE; YOU ARE GOD, THE HEALER OF ALL, YOU ARE GOD, FAITHFUL AND TRUE; I CAN ALWAYS FIND REST IN YOU" (YOU ARE GOD by Jam Capistrano)
--This is another song that makes me cry, because ONLY GOD can restore lives, renew lives and people, only GOD can HEAL. IN JESUS' NAME. there is NOTHING AND NO ONE MORE POWERFUL THAN GOD! sure, struggles may come once in a while, but GOD is NOT insecure, because He allows these things to happen that we may see His glory, His power and His greatness! "MY GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR YOU, FOR MY POWER IS MADE PERFECT IN WEAKNESS" -2Cor 12:9
The fact that He allows these struggles to happen only means that He is about to give and show us all something greater. GOD is definitely filled with so many surprises which is really AWESOME because He exceeds our expectation all the time, which is why I want to know more and more of GOD

"TAKE ME DEEPER THAN I'VE BEEN BEFORE, TAKE ME FURTHER GOD I LONG FOR MORE, TAKE ME HIGHER THAN I'VE BEEN BEFORE, JESUS I WANT MORE, JESUS I NEED MORE" (DEEPER by PLANETSHAKERS
--MORE AND MORE of GOD is what I want out of life that I may spend the rest of my life knowing more about Him, GOD IS MY LIFE PARTNER. Sure, i'd like to get married and meet that guy whom GOD has prepared for me; to sustain me as I walk through this journey in meeting GOD. but more than anything else. GOD ALWAYS COMES FIRST. one of the things that I look for in a guy is to LOVE GOD and put GOD FIRST.

I guess the whole content of this entry is not that organized. honestly, there are so many things that i want to include in this entry, BUT it is a bit long already. I think it is a sign that I should have some follow up entries to narrow things down and get my thoughts organized :) but for now, GTG time to eat lunch :)

GOD BLESS US ALL!

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

Life's true meaning

2010-08-22T09:23:00.000-07:00

It feels good to see these people, so eager to serve YOU

So passionate and driven, so others may know YOUR truth

Instruments you call them as they preach your word

Inspirations to others for your voice through them are heard

They uplift our spirits and open our eyes to YOU

For YOU speak through them-Your miraculous work the do

You guide them and show them where you want them to be

You've sent them to everyone, You've even sent them to me

One day I hope that I may be able to do the same

To do everything for YOUR GLORY and not for the sake of fame

Please erase all the anger and negativity here in my heart

For this can be a hindrance to me-the reason I may fall apart

I know and believe that now, YOU, I am ready to receive

Touch my heart, Oh, God that I may no longer be deceived

Cleanse me thoroughly so I may see you clearly

Live in my heart that one day, You may also be speaking through me

I am lifting my heart, my soul, my absolute everything

Use me as your instrument as well, So to others I could also start ministering

I want to be with you forever-To live a life everlasting

Because only with YOU, I can find life's TRUE MEANING

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

NEW

2010-08-22T09:18:00.002-07:00

It's my start of a new life with YOU

The start of my ultimate dream that's finally coming true

All this time You've carefully guided me here

Now is the right time, I believe this is a GREAT YEAR!

I thank You, Father for truly knowing who I am

For you've taken care of me, You are my Shepherd and I am your lamb

Now that I am here in this place, I am whole-heartedly and willingly to serve YOU

I really want to praise and thank YOU for all the things that YOU do

I feel like a phoenix who was reborn from the dark ashes

A person who has gone through and survived the puzzling mazes

I am now fresh, new, clean, pristine and pure

Like a precious child-whose so innocent and so sure

This is the start of a new path that You've lead me to take

You will be guiding me with all the decisions that I'd need to make

I am no longer worried-For through You "doubt" no longer exists

Because U am now Your Child, Evil is so much easier to resist

Although I know that being a CHRISTIAN is a huge challenge

I believe that it will be all worth it because my life you have changed

I believe in YOUR POWER-My God, My Father, My Protector and Savior

You will never leave me hanging, For through everything (YOUR LOVE, YOUR PROMISES, YOUR PURPOSE)

YOU, GOD ARE NEVER CHANGING

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

7days of Creation= 7Phases of Human Existence

2010-07-16T07:02:00.000-07:00

Hey bloggers,

it has been a while. so. I have reached a realization. I joined a small group in our church and our group leader suggested that i start reading the bible daily because she said that when everything fails, only the word of God can give us strength to take one more step forward. Which is true. Anyway, I started reading Genesis. and while reading, something just hit me.

I realized that Maybe the story of Creation is more than a "Story of Creation" i think that it signifies the 7phases of human existence. What do i mean by this? Well. for me, it kind of makes sense.

Allow me to elaborate...

Day 1-Let there be light.

Phase 1-Let there be light in our life. The light is God. For me, this is the phase when we truly accepted God as our Lord and Almighty Father. He is our light in the darkness of days.

Day2-Let there be a huge space between the waters.

Phase 2- Sky and Ocean. When we look up at the sky,see the calm colors of white and blue mixed together, we feel the calmness and the serenity of both the sky and ocean. it is peaceful. meaning, when we find God and allow his light to illuminate us and just feel free from all pains and sufferings. The sky and the water has a connection. Just like the connection that we have with God.

Day3-Let the water under the sky be gathered to one place and let dry ground appear.

Phase3 - This is like the very foundation of our being. Since we have established a connection with God in the first two phases, we can now become a "healthy land" which means that we are a step closer in feeling and being whole.

Day4-Let there be lights in the expanse of the sky to separate the day from the night, and let them serve as signs to mark seasons and days and years...

God made two great lights - the greater light to govern the day and the lesser light to govern the night. He also made the stars

Phase4 - There are three great lights, Sun, moon and stars which for me represents our three essentials. our Mind, Heart and Soul. This part was actually a bit difficult for me to interpret, but Thank You Jesus! He has blessed me with knowledge and the wisdom to understand what the scripture was trying to tell me. Like once we have gone through the first three phases, we would finally find the light within us and that we already have that ability to separate ourselves from darkness

Day 5 - Let the water teem with living creatures, and let birds fly above the earth across the expanse of the sky.

Phase 5 - These animals for me are God's instruments which He used to touch us and us to touch them as well. These are His instruments to show how much He truly loves us, There are a LOT of different animals which represent the different personalities and different form and different people.

Day 6 - Let the land produce living creatures according to their kinds: livestock, creatures that move along the ground, and wild animals, each according to its kind...
Then God said, Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.

Phase 6 - This for me shows that we ARE GOD'S WARRIORS. God made these wild animals and man in order to defend our faith. I personally believe that in every person, there is a warrior whom he has blessed with courage and strength. That's why we have struggles, pain and temptations; because we have the unbeatable strength that God has provided for us. WE are all created as strong individuals. Thus, we must use that strength in fighting against anything and everything which wishes to affect our Faith. As Warriors of God, we should NOT LET THAT HAPPEN! GOD IS OUR STRENGTH

"IF GOD IS FOR US, WHO CAN BE AGAINST US?" -Romans 8:31

Day 7-By the seventh day God had finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day he rested from all his work. And God blessed the seventh day and made it holy, because on it he rested from all the work of creating that he had done.

Phase 7 - Rest. Rest is like the day when we finally join God is that perfect place called heaven. We can only get to this place when God thinks that we are ready. Only God knows when that perfect time is. When we are already worthy of meeting and facing HIM. and experiencing ETERNAL LIFE. WE can now rest with HIM because we are now the complete beings blessed by the grace of GOD. WE CAN NOW BE WITH OUR PERFECT FATHER WHO WILL ALWAYS LOVE US.

This is just my interpretation, you may agree or not, but I posted this because I feel that God wants me to. This is HIS plan for me and I trust HIM. It's something that I think is WORTH SHARING.

Let us also not forget that whatever we go through in life, who ever we meet, no matter how many times we stumble. We are made in the image and likeness of GOD. WE are NOT A MISTAKE. GOD BELIEVES IN US MORE THAN EVERYONE ELSE ON EARTH COMBINED. TRUST. HAVE FAITH AND GOD BLESS US ALL!

GOD BLESS US ALL!

"Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you. Before you were born, I set you apart for my holy purpose. I appointed you to be a prophet to the nations."-Jeremiah 1:5

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

I WILL NOT SAY GOODBYE by Danny Gokey

2010-06-08T05:24:00.001-07:00

sung by one of my favorite singers, filled with so much emotion and passion. FILLED WITH SOUL.

American Idol

2010-05-21T10:26:00.000-07:00

hey bloggers,

Okay, although I am not an American and I cannot vote in American Idol, nevertheless, This post is dedicated to my "American Idol" (so to speak : ) ) LEE DEWYZE.

I have been an avid fan of American Idol since season 3 (where Fantasia won) and I still enjoy watching American Idol, especially now wherein Lee DeWyze is one of the final two! (Yeah!).

So, far my favorite season was season 8 (but I wanted the final 2 to be Danny Gokey and Adam Lambert :( my pick that season was Danny Gokey) I love singers with like a husky and broken but powerful voices (ex. Pink!) which is why I love Lee's voice. His voice is so unique and he reminds me a bit of Danny Gokey. But Lee has his own unique style of twisting every song that he performs. Which really amazes me. I know some of you would say that I just like him because he is attractive, sure that may be one of the factors, but as you know, I am not that shallow. Aside from Lee being such a talented and an amazing artist, he also seems to have such a good heart. He's humble and grateful of everything around him which means that he doesn't let his "fame" get into his head.-this is one of the most outstanding thing that I personally admire about him. Even if he has an unpleasant past, he has moved on and he admits that he isn't that person anymore. and lets hope that it does stay that way even when he's super successful. As an outsider from showbiz, I can see that showbiz is filled with so much temptation, and I really hope that when Lee becomes successful, he doesn't get lured back to his past.

Lee DeWyze is a very good person and an amazingly talented artist. I really admire him so much! I hope that he wins, but this does not mean that Crystal isn't good, because she is really such an amazing artist too, the only difference is that I'm a bigger Lee DeWyze fan than Crystal but I am also a fan of Crystal.

I can't vote, so I'm just blogging :)

I beLEEve in LEE DEWYZE! GO LEE!

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

Moon Aligned with Venus-What does it mean?

2010-05-16T10:09:00.000-07:00

hey bloggers!

I feel so blessed to be one of the people who have seen the conjunction of venus and the moon. I just came from church around 6pm, then as i was stepping out of God's home, I saw the moon, I immediately put out my phone to try to take a picture but i was not successful, you see, camera phones can only zoom to an extent. So i immediately called my Uncle who has one of the most brilliant camera's in the world (really now? :P) and asked him to take the photo instead. Surprisingly, he has absolutely no idea that the moon and the planet Venus were aligned. So, it is a good thing that I informed him and he was able to take the picture. ( I don't have the photo yet cause he hasn't uploaded it yet, but as soon as i have a copy, i'll place it here) It was such a marvelous experience and I don't think that I've ever seen something so beautiful up in the sky. It was an experience. But despite admiring the beauty of this extraordinary thing, I can't help but think, "what does this mean?"

You know, one of my flaws as a person is that I tend to over think things. I do, its like a disease. My Mom says that I'm like a computer because I can't shut my brain up.I have come up with 4 unusual theories, these are just ideas, there are no facts, these are just my ideas/conclusions/ theories-if you may. These are not facts although I have attached some mythologies that support my theories. You know, i don't even know if it makes any sense but they're my ideas, thoughts... just thoughts...okay? don't take anything personally.

Anyway, What does this mean? Why is the moon aligned with Venus? I'm no Astronomer or whatever but my interpretation is, (theory 1) Venus represents Aphrodite in Greek Myth, right? and the moon is commonly like compared to a woman's menstrual cycle, okay, greek myth, Selene or Luna which if I remember correctly is the goddess of the moon, I think? Luna means light? right? So if the goddess of love and beauty and the goddess of light aligned, doe this mean that this represents women empowerment? (theory 2) okay, similar to my first theory but different conclusion. the conclusion is since Venus represents beauty and love and Selene represents light and strength, does this mean some kind of World Peace? Cause it promotes love, beauty and light? (Theory 3) This is somewhat connected with my first two theories but I think that it is a way of God telling us that whatever is happening in our lives, (problem, struggles, trials and challenges) that we are facing at the moment, its His way of telling us that we will get through this and that we all have a better and brighter and a beautiful future ahead of us cause what are the odds that it happened on a Sunday night, right? . and my last theory (theory 4) Well, this one, I got this from http://www.gmanews.tv/story/191122/sublime-venus-moon-alignment-seen-sunday-night it says that Elders say that when this happens (moon aligns with venus) it signifies lovers who are eloping or a pregnant woman getting married.

Again, these are just ideas, there is no proof that these are facts. okay? Thoughts and Ideas...

I don't really know what this really means or if my so-called theories make any sense at all, but whatever, these are my thoughts, take it or leave it. Whatever.

Thanks for your time and please rate, comment, whatever... it'd be great to hear from you all!

God Bless Us All,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

TEAM HOYT

2010-01-27T06:16:00.000-08:00

hey bloggers,

Everyone has stories to share. Everyone experience different things in life. but i am going to post something that is definitely worth sharing... It's about Team Hoyt. My mom showed me this video a few years ago, and i never forgot about it. Now, since I am taking up SPED, and i have a report due tomorrow about Physical Disabilities, this story was one of the first things that popped into my mind. I never forgot this story. and the video that comes with it. I hope that this story creates as much impact to all of you as it did to me.

btw, thanks to munfitnessblog.com for the whole story, youtube for the video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GphmdhLMGE

TEAM HOYT!

I was reading something about triathlons and I came across Team Hoyt by chance from the Net. After watching one of their video clips – “I Can Only Imagine”, I could not help but was totally inspired by the father and son team.If you have been delaying your plan to exercise or to watch your diet or to join a marathon, this inspirational true story is for you. If you are a father with kids at home or even if you are a child with a loving father, I want you to watch the video clip too.
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While waiting the video to load, let me share with you the real life story of Team Hoyt:Father (Dick Hoyt) and son (Rick Hoyt) have joined many marathons, triathlons and other athletic competitions. But, what makes them really different from others is that Rick suffers from cerebral palsy – a condition involving permanent tightening of the muscles caused by damage to the brain during the time of birth. Rick was disabled at birth by a loss of oxygen to his brain because his umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck.
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Therefore, Rick does not swim. Rick does not cycle. Rick does not run.
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When his father swims, Rick is lying in a small boat being pulled by his dad. When the father cycles, son is sitting in the seat-pod from his wheelchair, attached to the front of the bike. When the father runs, he pushes Rick in a special wheelchair. They have been going over hundreds of finishing lines throughout US for the past 27 years.
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When Rick came to the world in 1962, doctors told his parents that they have no hope for Rick. But Dick and his wife, Judy, did not give up. The couple brought their son back home and determine to raise him as normally as possible.

The couple managed to raise $5,000 in 1972 to get a special built interactive computer that allowed Rick to write out his thought using slight head movements. A group of Tufts University engineers agreed to build the computer after they believed that Rick had clear comprehension skills. Since then, Rick was able to communicate to people around him.

In 1975, Rick was finally admitted into a public school. Two years later, Dick brought Rick to participate in a fund raising 5-mile run. Dick pushed Rick in a wheelchair to finish the race. They finished second to last, but Rick was so happy that he told his father that he did not feel handicapped when they were in the competition. That run was the first time “Team Hoyt” competing before they participated more marathons.

During this journey, almost everyone looked down at Rick. No one talked to Team Hoyt. No one wanted to run beside them. But, the father and son kept going strong. After 4 years of marathons, Team Hoyt went for their first triathlon. Dick did not know how to swim before this. So, he put in lot of his effort in picking up the skill. He worked out up to 5 hours a day, 5 times a week, even when he had to work. He wanted to set a good role model for Rick – once you set out to do something, sticks to it for whatever it takes.

Not only once, the team has participated in many races. After all these years, here are some of their proud achievements:

216 Triathlons, 6 Ironman distances
20 Duathlons
65 Marathons, 25 Boston Marathons

They have also biked and ran across the USA in 1992 with a total of 3,735 miles in 45 consecutive days.

In year 2008, Dick Hoyt and Rick Hoyt are going to be 68 and 48 years old. Finally, after so many years, Team Hoyt managed to raise public attitudes toward the physically and mentally challenged. Their best time, 2 hours 40 minutes in 1992 is merely 35 minutes from the world record. I mean, world record hold by someone who does not have to pull another man, cycle another man and push another man.

Dick said, “Those doctors who asked us to give up hope are not alive any more, but I would like them to be able to see Rick now.”

Mun’s Comment:

It is not easy to swim, cycle and to run in a single race. Dick has done it, together with his son. The special father and son relationship has touched me so much. When Rick was asked about the thing he really wants to give his dad – “The thing I’d most like…is that my dad sit in the chair and I push him once.”
When I showed the video to one of my friends, he told me with tears in eyes that “This is the kind of father I want to be someday.”
I started out this post as a way to encourage my readers to set a fitness goal and determined to achieve it. But after watching the videos many times, tears of admiration has overcome me. I was simply blown away. Team Hoyt is more than a sport team in marathon and triathlon. It is also a story of a father’s unselfish love for his son. The story teaches me what really matters. Family, love, determination and sacrifice.

I am not so sure about whether these two human beings have touched you, but I hope that you have learned something from them.

A special son. A loving father. A touching story.

Are you done reading yet? well , yeah it's a bit long but so worth it. This story fills my eyes with so much tears, touches my heart everytime I watch the video and read this story. My report is tomorrow. (God Bless Us All) and I am going to be using their story as a prayer and relate it to my topic. Isn't God great? He blesses us with wonderful, inspiring people to move us, so that we can share their stories and have HOPE.

It also made me realize how special Rick is, not because of his condition but because He was handpicked by God to serve as an inspiration to so many people.

God Bless Us All!

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

-Philippians 4:13

To THE GREATEST HERO THAT EVER LIVED - BABY BRIANNA

2009-12-28T18:05:00.000-08:00

hey bloggers,

This time, this post is extremely personal. It's just something that I thought I needed to share. Here's the thing, I was on facebook when one of my friends sent me an email stating that I should check out one of her post on her wall and watch the Baby Brianna's video. So, I agreed, I went to the site, played the video and waited for it to load. then there was just something inside of me that made me want to watch it.

As i clicked "Play". I felt like every inch of my heart was throbbing with pain. My eyes became blurry because there were suddenly tears filling my eyes. I did not know if it was because of pain, pity, or anger. I was definitely feeling so many emotions at that six minute video. Then pictures of Baby Brianna were shown which me weep even more. Anger, and heat filled me. I cannot believe what I have watched and how cruel people, parents could be. this was a case of child abuse is such a different level. I cannot even believe that such human beings could do such a cruel thing to an innocent child.

One of the positive things that I could think of is that-Brianna's unfortunate story made people care. Woke up so many people to the point of giving proper and rightful punishments to those who deserved it.

Another thing, I personally consider Brianna to be one of the greatest and an extremely Brave BABY GIRL. She is a hero in my book. Why? Because through her story, she has touched, changed and saved so so many lives.

But at the end, how I feel doesn't matter, because baby BRIANNA IS NOW SAFE, AND AT PEACE! Stay Safe Brianna... You're with God now, Everything is All Right!

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

-Philippians 4:13

nothing, one of my lame-st post ever!

2009-11-17T00:37:00.000-08:00

hey bloggers,

Well, my thoughts for today are basically nothing. I mean, I am glad that I got to use the computer, but as of now, I have nothing interesting to share... Oh, wait!

I am currently downloading one of my favorite movies- ever! and might I add that it has been a while since the last time that I watched it... maybe ten years ago? no exaggerations, anyway,, it's the movie "Now and Then". It was since 1995. and I really love this movie! so so much! and since i am using torrent, it is a bit slow. So, I am still waiting for it to finish! and I can't wait to watch it.!

God Bless,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

-Philippians 4:13

i dont know if it's true...

2009-11-17T00:25:00.000-08:00

hey bloggers!

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
-Philippians 4:13

Questions. Answers. Reasons.

2009-10-31T02:06:00.000-07:00

hey bloggers,
Okay, it has been a while since my last post. its lame I know. I had over a month long to write and go online but nope, I wasn't able to, Why? because my family are ultimately obsessed with facebook and all its perks. (farmville, farmtown, cafeworld, and others) they are so addicted to it that they have their own schedules in hoarding the computer. I can't even get in, and if I ask if I could download something or check my email, they decline. Facebook is definitely addictive. It has a LOT of games which is why people don't get bored using it and have a blast on logging on to facebook. This is mainly the reason why I DO NOT engage in those sort of games, because I DO NOT want to get hooked and become one of the addicts as well. For those whom I have invited to cafe world, please take note that, that is NOT ME, IT'S MY MOM USING MY ACCOUNT IN FACEBOOK TO PLAY CAFE WORLD. It's addictive. And quite frankly, I don't understand the obsession. i tried playing it once and that was like five months ago or so and I found it very very boring. I guess its just not my thing. Although, I DO ENJOY logging on to facebook to catch up with my friends and take these wonderful and sometimes odd quizzes. but I am not that addicted to it.

What did I do for the past month? Well, for those who want to know, I just studied for my removal exam in math and wrote songs, poems and a new book the old fashion way, using my old multicolored long pad and my handy pen. I did the only thing what calms me down, I used the old pen and paper. But yead, once in a while I log on for about thirty minutes maz just to check my email and enroll online. but that's it. It's only now when I have spent an hour and thirty minutes (and counting! yey for me!) on the computer. I am actually happy. haha!

But lets's go to the old saying that "There is always a silver lining in every situation". Truthfully, there is, im my case, I was able to revive my love for writing, again. And like what I am doing now (typing) became much much easier because I feel like my thoughts are fresh and awakened. Although, the part where I studied math for a month is not that satisfying. Cause I hate math. I am so bad at math, honestly. But to be able to once again explore the art of writing is very satisfying and rewarding for someone like me. I love it. But if someone would ask me if this was my best sem break ever, I would have to say no-because I know that there is so much more that could be considered as 'best' than this. I could state that this sem break is better than the ones I had in the past, because I feel like I am already getting closer in finding myself. Me. And its about time right? I am turning twenty (ehggkkk!) next march so, I think that I am in a great point of my life cause I am constantly getting closer in what I want in life. (Despite the rumors that the world will end on 2012) I still have goals that I want to accomplish no matter what happens in the future, because there must be a reason why we have these wants, dreams and goals right?

I know for a fact and I choose to see Life is a gift from God; He has given us DREAMS and DESIRES for a reason, and we are gifted with LIFE to find that reason. That's why we shoudn't worry, For GOD is with us in every step of the journey. I know that there will come a point where I would feel down at times but I TRUST AND LOVE GOD. and I LIFT MY EVERYTHING TO HIM.

p.s. here's a song that pretty much inspired part of this post:

LORD I OFFER MY LIFE TO YOU
by HillSong

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours

(Chorus)
Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

(Verse 2)
Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, alll of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to you

(Chorus)
Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

Take Care and God Bless,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
-Philippians 4:13

A WEB OF LIES

2009-10-09T23:13:00.000-07:00

hey bloggers,

So, it has been a while since my last post and things have been going a little crazy not only here at home but also elsewhere. It has been a crazy semester for all of us.

So many things have happened that I don't even know where to begin. It's very upsetting. (did I spell that correctly? - sorry, i suck at spelling.)

I never really understood the concept of "being caught in a web of lies" but seeing someone in that position makes me reconsider everything. Okay, this post not entirely about me. Or I am not the direct victim here or anything. It's about my best friend and the person who she loves. This goes out to the A**Hole who such an ASS!

I am a BAD LIAR. It's true. I suck at being a liar just as much as I suck at spelling. I'm a bad liar. which in my case is very ironic because I know someone who is a very very good liar. the thing is, that someone is already caught in his own web of lies that he doesn't even realize it. Isn't that so STUPID? HAHA! He comes up with lies, lies. and more lies. and he thinks that I am that stupid to fall for it. I may be a bad speller, horrible in math, gullible at times, fat and short but dammit I am NOT STUPID.

The DumbASS! this post is for you! Every freakin' time you lie, remember that there are consequences awaiting. My advice? Stop and cut the crap in whatever foolishness your doing and for once in YOUR OLD LIFE- tell the TRUTH. (but do you still know what the truth is?)

YOUR LOVE IS A LIE by

SIMPLE PLAN

I fall asleep by the telephone
It's 2 O'clock and I'm waiting up alone
Tell me where have you been?
I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss, but it just don't feel the same
Cause I can feel that you're gone

I can't bite my tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don't take me for a fool

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know
Your love is just a lie
(Lie)
It's nothing but a lie
(Lie)

You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah you know what I mean
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that i trust you
And do you think about me when he fucks you?
Could you be more obscene?

So dont try to say you're sorry
Or try to make it right
Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know,
Your love is just a lie
(Lie)
It's nothing but a lie
(Lie)
You're nothing but a lie

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know
Your love is just a lie
(Lie
I know you're nothing but a lie
(Lie)
Lie
(Lie)
Lie
(Lie)
Lie

Your love is just a lie

This song is by my FAVORITE BAND OF ALL TIME! SIMPLE PLAN! THEY RULE! I LOVE THEM!

TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

-Philippians 4:13

Philippians 4:13

2009-09-21T07:24:00.000-07:00

hey bloggers,

You wanna know what frustrates me? The last 2 weeks of a semester! which in my case is this week! There are a LOT of requirements to accomplish like papers, powepoints, websites, observations and MORE! yes.. it is going to become a VERY VERY VERY STRESSFUL WEEK! but knowing that i am already in my third year of being a college student, God has guided me throughout my entire life! and I am sure that God is with me through ups and downs... He will help me accomplish everything I need to do. Yes, it's stressful but I can make it. In JESUS' NAME. Allow me to quote one of my favorite bible verses. it's from Philippians:

"...For I can do everything through Christ,who gives me strength."

- Philippians 4:13

That's why I am not worried at all. All it takes is just one step at a time, courage and confidence that God will guide and help us all through whatever!

Gotta hit the sheets. I've been doing my papers all day, I am only human and kinda tired from doing all the requirements. the great thing is though, Tomorrow is another day. Another Wonderful and Blessed Day from God!

Just wanted to share this wonderful daily verse before I end this blog entry:

For the invisible things of Him from the creation of the world, by the things made being understood, are plainly seen, both His eternal power and Godhead -- to their being inexcusable.

-Romans 1:20

Take Care and God Bless Us All!

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

-Philippians 4:13

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" - 2 Corinthians 12:9

2009-09-19T09:40:00.000-07:00

hey bloggers,

okay, i am going on a little bit of a new direction in this particular blog...

My last blog before this was about how men could be such pigs and basically discriminating men in general and if I had offended anyone, I would like to apologize, it was just a matter of opinion because my bestfriend was going through something and because she IS my best friend, it had truly affected me as well to see her hurting so much. Which eventually lead me into writing my previous blog about hating men... But still, I stand by my opinion. : D i just explained my side if ever anyone was offended. I did not mean to hurt anyone by it.

Anyway, this is my new page which means that I am going to a new topic and talking about other things. . . here it goes,

For the past few days, me and my family have been going through a rough road which lead us to feel disconnected/separated (am I using the right term??) with one another, emotionally. I tried to act as if nothing was wrong but of course, my true and real friends sees the real me and knew that something was off with me. I have been trying to toughen up every time I leave the house and in the house. It was so hard. Truly it was. I am so sure that I am not the only one who goes through tough trials and I give everyone a shout out for being strong enough to be the last person in the battle. . .

In my case, I did not think that I could survive it and thought that we might fall apart because we got to a point where we questioned ourselves and gave in to the devil's schemes. Which was such a stupid thing to do.

But, The great thing about being a Christian and seek God's help and lift up all our worries, doubts and fear is that once you call on God, he is will make you feel that you are safe, comforted and secured ("Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." -Matthew 7:7). Usually, blogs end up with a sour note because it is the place where feelings are expressed, well more on negative feelings. but this time, I will be sharing something that is worth sharing that will hopefully inspire people.

My family had an unexpected talk with one another and talked about God, The most wonderful, powerful, wise and magnificent GOD. Which made us realize how tricky are the devil's schemes to rip us apart just by playing with our heads. But GOD, JESUS CHRIST, is MUCH MORE POWERFUL than the devil. We suddenly felt so blessed , safe, secured, and relieved. Like God has opened our hearts and our minds and made us realize who we really are.

God is truly great! Then, just a few minutes ago, I opened my e-mail and read my daily bible verse which read

"Become, then, followers of God, as children beloved, and walk in love, as also the Christ did love us, and did give himself for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God for an odour of a sweet smell." - Ephesians 5:1-2

Which is one of the things that made me know that truly, everything will be alright in JESUS' MOST HOLY NAME! Really, Trust GOD and DO NOT BE AFRAID TO CALL ON GOD. Especially in times of trouble, because God is always there, all we need to do is call on him. God is just waiting for us.

Before I end this blog and go to sleep, let me share with you one of my favorite bible verses and one of my favorite Christian Songs:

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness"

- 2 Corinthians 12:9

and this song is entitled

"You Are Holy (Prince of Peace)"

Michael W. Smith

You are holy (You are holy)

You are mighty (You are mighty)

You are worthy (You are worthy)

Worthy of praise (Worthy of praise)

I will follow (I will follow)
I will listen (I will listen)
I will love You (I will love you)
All of my days (All of my days)

I will sing to (You're the lord of lords)

And worship (You're the king of kings)
The King who (You are mighty God)
Is worthy (Lord of everything)
I will love Him (You're emmanuel)
Adore Him (You're the Great I am)
I will bow down (You're the Prince of Peace)
before Him (Who is the lamb)
I will sing to (You're the living God
And worship (You're my saving grace)
The King who (You will reign forever)
Is worthy (You are acient of days)
I will love Him (You are Alpha Omega)
Adore Him (Beginning and End)
I will bow down (You're my Savior Messiah)
Before Him (Redeemer and friend)

You're my Prince of Peace
And I will live my life for You

Thank You Jesus!

Take Care and God Bless,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

-Philippians 4:13

Why are they even here?!? (For girls only; if you're a dude;don't read this, You might get offended)

2009-09-13T22:48:00.000-07:00

This is a matter of opinion, no intended purpose to offend anyone. Sorry (if ever). Comments whether good or bad are welcomed. I would really LOVE to hear from all of you. Let me know what you think... Thanks!

hey bloggers,

Why are men even born? Why the heck do they still exist in this world? Why are they here? What use do they have here aside from hurting women and getting them pregnant then leaving them alone to deal. In short, they are all useless, egotestical, abnoxious pigs.

It took me a while to realize that I am a man-hater. I'm sorry, I just am. No, I'm not acting this way because I was hurt in the past or because I was never in a relationship,, I guess I'm this way because people who are very very close and dear to me always ends up getting hurt because of these stupid men. but with all fairness, Without men, there would be no Andy Garcia, Tom Hanks, John Trovolta, Chris Pine, Channing Tatum and Zac Efron. That's it. But the thing is, we are all fascinated with these men because of the roles/characters that they play in movies. Open your eyes people! We all know that there isn't a guy in the real world who is as perfect as Edward Cullen/ Jacob Black/ Troy Bolton/ Langdon Carter/ Danny Zuko / Michael Greene or whoever fictional character that girls wishes to have. . . It's honestly pathetic. (and I am also guilty of being one pathetic girl) I also think that this is one of the reason why men's ego keeps on building.

And i think that no matter what women do, men are still men. They could be the most evil creatures in this world. They lure women in their trap and feel like they own them. Plus, once that they have done something wrong or stupid, they would act super sweet and cuddly and beg for your forgiveness and sometimes make women feel guilty for thinking wrong of them then later on, you'd find out that all your speculations are true. Dang it! Why do women fall for their crap?

I guess one of the plus things about guys is that they help in the population. That's it. I don't believe in the whole "he gives me inspiration" -Ugh! whatever! You can get inspiration from your family and friends! You don't need a guy to make you feel complete : ("You complete me" - Jerry Maguire) One of the most important thing to accoplish in life is to feel secure and complete before allowing someone to enter your life and allow that person to fill the void that you still have. Make sure that you feel whole and complete before allowing someone to enter your life. You have to be sure of yourself first.

Again, don't get me wrong, I have tons of guy friends! As in a lot. They are cool to hang out with. They come to me for advice and ask me to help them in courting a girl. They are great as friends . But I guess, that's about it for me.

Inspiration is found everywhere and anywhere as long as you open your eyes and not just focuse and depend everything to a guy. Because most of the time, they are full of crap. Heck, you can even find inspiration when you close your eyes and allow your mind to wonder. Seriously, When you are feeling down or depressed, Close your eyes. Breathe. Pray. Allow the soft, cool breeze to flow through your hair and relax your muscles. Let your mind wonder. Then,BAM! your inspired! either you'd feel great about yourself or an idea suddenly pops on your head when you least expect it. Like even if you were stressing the whole day for an idea to come, once you calm yourself and close your eyes. It happens. One of the best things to do is Not to look for inspiration, instad, Allow inspiration to find you.

*By the way, a shout out to one of my greatest friends, Jed Bringas! it's his birthday today! Happy Birthday Jed!

Take Care and God Bless,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

-Philippians 4:13

Second

2009-09-13T09:07:00.001-07:00

hey bloggers,

Oh,my gosh, am I that lame?
This is my second post because I have changed my signature, cause I was not yet contented with my first signature,,, and dang it, I still can't figure how to create or customize my site. I want to make it more.."me" you know?

Even if I have spent almost the whole day in the computer doing my papers, i still have the energy to create a new post. I guess it's because i don't have a life. But I don't want anyone to get this the wrong way, I love my family and happy with the life and relationship that I have with them, honestly I am but. I have my own expectation on how I want to live my life, is that so bad? Does this mean that I am not contented? I don't know, Maybe this is one of the reasons why blogging/writing is so easy. This is the place where we could release our anger, -wait, no, emotion. When I write, I feel like I am able accomplish something. In a way, it's like I am feeding my passion (one of it anyway) writing is my life, basically. Well. I am an artist in a way because of what my real passion is. friends, you know what I'm taking about. right? you know what my real passion is, right? and well, to be honest, I am not living the life that I want to live. heck, I'm not even the person that I want to be. or what I expect myself to be. Again, I'm lame.

Woah, It's already 12:20am... guess I better go to my room and hit the sheets before my parents get mad. And another conclusion, I AM LAME. -but hey, I love and respect my parents.

Take Care Everyone and God Bless,

"For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Philippians 4:13

First Post

2009-09-13T09:01:00.001-07:00

okay, this is my first post. at least in this site so I'm sorry if it's lame and stupid at first cause it is my first post...duh? it's suppose to be lame. I still don't know what to say or share because I'm new.

Think of it like this, it's your very first day of school, everyone looks at you, everyone whispers around and your mind starts to feel like it's bursting with so many insecurities... (are they looking at me? are they talking about me? etc...) slowly, you feel like your legs are stiff, you can't feel your legs as they walk towards the bathroom, then suddenly you feel a whipping wind on your face and your hair swings and blocks your view, you run... without you knowing it, your still running, you drop your books and open the bathroom door and you almost slip as you head towards the cubicle, then you start to hear laughter, noise, imagine people pointing at you? you feel anxious, dizzy, like your going to faint, you face the toilet...and...

Every first experience is usually like that... so, that's what i kinda feel now. even if i do have other blogs, this is still a new site, like new territory for me. it's still uncomfortable... it may take a few visits for me to warm-up. . . but hopefully, I have viewers/ bloggers who would visit me and get me motivated in posting...haha

BTW, the main reason why I did not continue the 'first day of school' story is because we are all different and may handle that specific situation differently, like some may throw up, sit down or cry...

Take Care and God Bless